December 2009

Dear Santa,

It’s been a while since I last wrote to you about anything at all. I’m really sorry about that, I’ve been very very busy. I know it’s not an excuse and I’m sure you will understand; but now I think it’s time we caught up a bit.

I guess the two of us go back a long long time, for better and for worse. Well, at least for me it’s a long time, I’m sure you might not think of it that way. You never told me how old you are and I’m still asking. C’mon, be proud, don’t hide! Anyway, I’m really sorry we never got to meet, but somehow you’ve always seemed to sneak right past me. I mean I tried, Santa, I really tried. I would stay up waiting, but you’d always show up when I wasn’t there. How you managed it, I will never understand. I was either taking a shower, in the kitchen, outside or who knows where. Well, it doesn’t matter, but it would’ve been nice to chat over a cup of tea or hot cocoa, wouldn’t it? Yes I know, I know, you’re always on the run. For the last two years or so, I know exactly how that is. How do you do it Santa? It’s so hard…

And then, yes, there were those darker times when I denied you existed. I know I really shouldn’t have done that, but you must understand: I was young and I thought I knew a lot more than I really did. We all have our moments of wandering at young ages, as I am sure you have had also. I hope there are no hard feelings about that, Santa, I really did not mean to offend.

But then I came around. You surely must remember that, don’t you? I wrote to you that winter. And I tried to make up for my mistake by telling everyone how you ARE real and you are everything people say you are and more. And then I thought, I could help you out a little. After all, there is so much for you to do, I just don’t know how you can do it! Remember what I wrote to you that winter? I told you don’t worry about the little things, we can take care of that ourselves. Everyone can buy a gift or two for their loved ones, it’s not such a big deal. We can do that, don’t waste your time and power on that. Instead, you take care of the bigger things. Help end the hunger. Help end the wars. Help the children, Santa, there are so many sick children out there. Don’t worry about us, we’ll manage.

Ah, but the years have passed Santa and I lost some of that altruism and hope. Maybe you did too, who knows. Not to say that you didn’t try, but not much has changed. I did my part, did you do yours? I… I know you did Santa, I’m not doubting you, but there is still so much to be done and so little power to do it. We’re not as strong as you are, we’re weak. We want to give, but we don’t find it in us to do so. Not as much as you give.

So I’ve been thinking Santa. Remember when I asked you for good health and good friends and true love? I really shouldn’t have, it was greedy of me. I know now that it was, to ask for so much when so many have so little. But you stopped by in your swiftly flying manner and you gave me all of that anyhow. And I didn’t even know how to properly appreciate it. So I won’t ask you for anything like that anymore. But there is something I want to ask you for.

If you would, if you can spare that, give us but one thing. Let us see the world through your eyes. Give us the power to care just like you care. Give us the power to give, ourselves, to others, without regret, without profit. Santa, give us the power to be like you. Give us that and I promise you that we will do the rest. We are stronger than I thought we were a few years ago. We are strong enough to save our world. We just don’t bother trying. We just don’t want to look at its dark side. Give us the power to try Santa, and we will make it happen. All of us, together, united in caring for others. And if that’s too much to ask, at least give us back our ability to love, to truly love ourselves and others. I fear we lost it somewhere and maybe.. maybe just with that and a little bit of luck, we’ll build on that.

We’re not lost yet, Santa, we’re just wandering. If you can, give us that. If not, I’ll understand and I won’t judge you for it, don’t worry.

Well Santa, I would really like to chat some more, but I’m afraid I have to go. There’s still some work I have to do before the winter holidays and I don’t want to keep you for too long either. You have less than two weeks to go and I know how it can get pretty crazy right before deadlines, so hang in there. I hope everyone there is well and you’re keeping yourself healthy. Don’t burn yourself out, I don’t think this world could survive a winter without you. As always, we’ll try and help out where we can so you can stay focused on what’s important.

Good luck with everything, Santa!

PS: Okay, I just remembered something. I found these really AWESOME socks they sell at HTO. You really have got to get yourself some of those, they are the second softest thing I’ve ever touched in my life. They’re incredible, trust me, you’ll adore them. Write to me after you’ve tried them, ok? Bye bye Santa!